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WEBVTT100:00:03.680 --> 00:00:15.400Hey, Um, got it,uh, you know, right, right,200:00:15.480 --> 00:00:18.559in an example of a good example, you know. Yeah, that300:00:18.600 --> 00:00:22.920works for you or something like that. Yeah, exactly, helpful. It's400:00:23.199 --> 00:00:26.399it's definitely, uh, it's definitelythere. And when I want to get500:00:26.399 --> 00:00:30.760there eventually, I'm just scared,scared, scared of what. So right600:00:30.800 --> 00:00:34.399now they can people being rude.I'm not. I'm not. My skin700:00:34.520 --> 00:00:37.280is not thick enough yet. Mindit. So I'll read them. It's800:00:37.320 --> 00:00:41.719fine, care I listen. I'mworse of a person than any human being.900:00:42.479 --> 00:00:45.479Okay, and that's at you know, I can, right, I1000:00:45.520 --> 00:00:49.439can boil your blood and half asecond. Okay, yeah, you can.1100:00:51.039 --> 00:00:56.159No, like even less than thatin half the sentence if you say1200:00:56.799 --> 00:01:00.399relax or grow up. I'm waitingfor another one to pop up, but1300:01:00.439 --> 00:01:03.000I don't. I haven't heard ityet and I don't know it right now.1400:01:06.959 --> 00:01:08.560What was what was that last word? Do you want to be canceled?1500:01:10.480 --> 00:01:14.879There you go. Um, well, you're lucky that it cut out.1600:01:15.560 --> 00:01:18.439You're very lucky that it cut out. Why I was wrong with that1700:01:18.480 --> 00:01:23.680word. What? Where did yousay? Oh my God, you've been1800:01:23.719 --> 00:01:27.359living in Florida too long, man, not too long. Literally, haven't1900:01:27.359 --> 00:01:34.480said that word since high school andI appreciate you. You fired me up.2000:01:34.519 --> 00:01:40.239You got it point proven. Butthat's so weird, like saying now2100:01:40.280 --> 00:01:42.439that I say that, it's likeremember that when, like way back in2200:01:42.480 --> 00:01:47.879the day, when like Jenko jeans? Remember those people? Oh yeah,2300:01:48.040 --> 00:01:51.840like people would would say that tolike I mean like Oh, you're a2400:01:51.840 --> 00:01:56.400loser. Yeah, like that showwouldn't fly today. No, but you2500:01:56.439 --> 00:02:00.760know what, I was listening toGreen Day. What I was listening to2600:02:00.879 --> 00:02:06.120Green Day, and it's one ofus, shut up, man, Green2700:02:06.879 --> 00:02:15.719Day. What what songs body?But yeah, it's I don't know,2800:02:15.759 --> 00:02:20.680it's a little much, I think. What were they saying? Are you2900:02:20.719 --> 00:02:23.960saying that they said the F word, that you just said that F word?3000:02:24.560 --> 00:02:29.080UH, yeah, I mean fuckingsign of the time. I'm putting3100:02:29.080 --> 00:02:30.319that out. I don't want tocut too much out today, but yeah,3200:02:30.360 --> 00:02:35.840I know. No, yeah,you're right. And you know what3300:02:35.879 --> 00:02:39.919I think it is? We triedso hard to learn how to be politically3400:02:40.000 --> 00:02:44.680correct back in between our generation.Wait, wait, let me finish,3500:02:44.840 --> 00:02:49.560between our generation and Gen z.That mess everything up, and now every3600:02:49.599 --> 00:02:54.439person is so sensitive to anything likeyou say. If you say like Oh3700:02:54.719 --> 00:02:59.280um, you know why did yousay that about? I don't want to3800:02:59.319 --> 00:03:01.840get troubly. I know. Yeah, I know what you're saying, though,3900:03:02.680 --> 00:03:08.280like Comedians, like fucking Comedians,the whole job is to take yeah,4000:03:09.159 --> 00:03:15.639they draw the they're supposed to findthe line. Professional comedian. I4100:03:15.639 --> 00:03:19.439think it was Bill Burr, perfectly, oh man. Yeah, but hey,4200:03:19.520 --> 00:03:23.879if you tell a joke and theyjoke does not offend, it doesn't4300:03:23.919 --> 00:03:29.280offend anybody in the audience. It'snot a good joke. True. Yeah,4400:03:29.560 --> 00:03:31.599I mean, Damn, those bombs. Even I can't take. Some4500:03:31.680 --> 00:03:38.000of them are like yeah, hesays, he says one of uh,4600:03:38.120 --> 00:03:40.879he says one about single MOMS.I love. That's my favorite one.4700:03:40.879 --> 00:03:45.479I know. I was like Iwas like cringing, but I actually was4800:03:45.520 --> 00:03:50.560like he does funny, not tastefully, but like funny. You know,4900:03:50.599 --> 00:03:54.840it's everything funny, but he's justdo it for shock factors. Yeah,5000:03:55.639 --> 00:04:01.159yeah, I don't know. Yeah, is so for it's such a weird5100:04:01.240 --> 00:04:06.159like border that he's able to bosome. Yeah, you're right, that's what5200:04:06.199 --> 00:04:12.560it is from Boston. Or ifyou know, you know, you know,5300:04:12.719 --> 00:04:17.639you know. Well, okay,so let's go with folks at home.5400:04:17.680 --> 00:04:23.160How you're doing? How I'm doing? I don't know. I can.5500:04:23.279 --> 00:04:26.319I like this conversation. We're happy. Oh Yeah, you want to5600:04:26.319 --> 00:04:32.120start. What's up? What's upeverybody? Thanks for jointing. Now what's5700:04:32.199 --> 00:04:39.000up everyone? This is Bellamars.I just interrupt ellamarsh, buddy streams this5800:04:39.079 --> 00:04:42.800thing. Okay, now what Iknow? Well, we can do the5900:04:42.959 --> 00:04:46.439video next time, but I'm gonnahave to like that was the other question6000:04:46.439 --> 00:04:49.279I had for you was that.SHOULD WE DO VIDEO? You think something6100:04:49.639 --> 00:04:55.879eventually, soon or soon? Yeah, when I look, I gotta figure6200:04:55.879 --> 00:04:59.399out how I want to look,like the letting and all that. You6300:04:59.439 --> 00:05:01.079know all. You know what elsewe should do? We can do the6400:05:01.160 --> 00:05:04.279live stream and I just will turnmy comments off, like you're saying.6500:05:08.160 --> 00:05:11.680I will turn mine off. Yousee them, I don't want to see6600:05:11.720 --> 00:05:15.800them. Yeah, that's what I'msaying. You can see I'll turn them6700:05:15.800 --> 00:05:18.480off. No, I want tosee your comments and, Um, I6800:05:18.519 --> 00:05:23.240want to read them. Yes,but I'm saying I don't want to read6900:05:23.399 --> 00:05:27.920or see them, but you willsee all of it and then just just7000:05:28.040 --> 00:05:30.560throw in like just a fake oneand be like, Oh, they say7100:05:30.639 --> 00:05:35.120you're you're doing a really good job, great, like you're all going to7200:05:35.560 --> 00:05:39.439crush on you and you know they'reall going to be like, oh,7300:05:39.600 --> 00:05:45.879she's a fucking she's, because they'renot like Holi, we went to high7400:05:45.879 --> 00:05:48.480school with. These are like,you know, kids. Probably, if7500:05:48.480 --> 00:05:51.439that listens, I don't know.You have the stats. I don't.7600:05:51.519 --> 00:05:58.319Oh my God, my they're myfag love, just getting att have a7700:05:58.319 --> 00:06:00.480thing. Sure, go ranching.I'd be like, okay, if everybody7800:06:00.480 --> 00:06:09.240whoever watches, I'll send you apicture of Mike, only for free and7900:06:09.319 --> 00:06:15.079by two friends. If I hitfive hundred subs today, then and bucks8000:06:15.079 --> 00:06:18.879of Raffle free only fans, andwe don't. We don't happen. Only8100:06:18.959 --> 00:06:21.879time, you know. So Um, yeah, that's a great way to8200:06:21.920 --> 00:06:26.800scan someone. So, anyways,that's a good idea. Who wants to8300:06:26.839 --> 00:06:31.279see? Because if I hate subs, now everyone has crushing on like gaming8400:06:31.319 --> 00:06:38.040girls and cool girls and like,Um uh. First of all, I8500:06:38.040 --> 00:06:41.480don't know why animal is so popular. Never Watch it. Don't get it.8600:06:41.759 --> 00:06:47.959Um, but people like have withfucking oriental girls and man, I8700:06:48.000 --> 00:06:53.399did like I did a couple.I did a sailor moon, but like8800:06:53.920 --> 00:06:57.240half asked because I don't have it. I got it like an outfit Oh8900:06:57.279 --> 00:07:00.680my God, I can't tell youhow many, like whatever. And then9000:07:00.839 --> 00:07:08.160socks, pictures anywhere, like whatI wear, knee high socks, and9100:07:08.240 --> 00:07:12.000like normal, like I'm definitely notlike, Oh yeah, I'm sure,9200:07:12.079 --> 00:07:15.319I'm sure, you have no ideawhat you're doing. I really don't think9300:07:17.519 --> 00:07:19.800well done, we want to buyme socks. Now I'm like, okay,9400:07:20.000 --> 00:07:24.839buy me socks and you get,you get an exclusive set of pictures.9500:07:25.720 --> 00:07:28.439I'll I'm gonna text you after this. I need some new ones.9600:07:30.399 --> 00:07:35.560Okay. Well, you wear boxerbriefs? Yeah, don't worry about it,9700:07:35.600 --> 00:07:42.120okay, and box of briefs,box of briefs. All right,9800:07:42.759 --> 00:07:47.720what's up, everybody? This takethree. WHAT'S UP, everybody? This9900:07:47.759 --> 00:07:53.480is Bella Mars and I'm here withRicky Boreas, who continues to interrupt me,10000:07:54.000 --> 00:07:58.399but he um, he's here again. Say, what's up, unprofessional?10100:07:58.800 --> 00:08:03.160What? Hi, everybody. Yeah, that was professional. I love10200:08:03.160 --> 00:08:07.639myself. Um, what's up peopleout there? We're gonna. Hey,10300:08:07.720 --> 00:08:11.079we could do that's a little lessontoday, a lesson on life, love10400:08:11.360 --> 00:08:16.160and maybe something else. Well,Um, so, I don't Miss It.10500:08:18.040 --> 00:08:22.519No, take it away. Sowhat we were talking about earlier?10600:08:22.800 --> 00:08:26.720Well, we're talking about a coupleof things. We're talking about comedians pushing10700:08:26.720 --> 00:08:28.680the line, but we kind ofmoved on from that. Then we're talking10800:08:28.720 --> 00:08:35.600about how we should move forward tothe next level of professionalism as it relates10900:08:35.679 --> 00:08:41.919to this podcast. When should wetake it to a Vidka? No,11000:08:43.159 --> 00:08:48.759livestream. No, taking video clips, and then I don't like seeing your11100:08:48.759 --> 00:08:56.759face like this. Taking video clipsto promote the podcast. Now I can't11200:08:56.759 --> 00:08:58.919hear. And then, uh,because right as it is, right now,11300:09:00.279 --> 00:09:03.080if I wanted, we can postit on Youtube, but you need11400:09:03.080 --> 00:09:09.440to tell me like a good level. Oh No, alright, the closest.11500:09:09.080 --> 00:09:13.639Alright, talk normal. I'M gonnasay. Wait, too far.11600:09:15.600 --> 00:09:18.919Yeah, now I hear like anecho. Okay, and then, all11700:09:18.960 --> 00:09:22.240right, so I called Bella.No, you're good. You're good when11800:09:22.279 --> 00:09:31.159you're okay, when you're all theway up my good here. Okay,11900:09:31.279 --> 00:09:35.240am I good here? Yes,what do I need? What do we12000:09:35.320 --> 00:09:41.360need to add to expenses so Ican write this off as an expense?12100:09:43.759 --> 00:09:50.600Okay, no, no, Imean the thing. Yeah, that's good.12200:09:50.720 --> 00:09:54.759Yeah, that's good. Oh,ship, you want to see me?12300:09:54.799 --> 00:10:01.360Obviously, don't look. It's abig speaker right here. I talk12400:10:01.440 --> 00:10:05.399into this. That probably work ifit's a speaker, though. It's not12500:10:05.480 --> 00:10:09.039a microphone, I think it.Yeah, I don't know if it is12600:10:09.080 --> 00:10:15.159there, whether there be a microphoneon a speaker as well. Yeah,12700:10:15.279 --> 00:10:18.480but I'm not. I don't wantall right, so okay, let me12800:10:18.480 --> 00:10:22.120think. Oh, maybe like aBluetooth microphone. That's dope. That's what12900:10:22.159 --> 00:10:26.039I meant to do right before,because I was like I meant I said,13000:10:26.080 --> 00:10:33.279Hey, give me to a fifteento sorry folks at home about this13100:10:33.360 --> 00:10:35.919is a lesson in being prepared,all right, and this is we're just13200:10:35.320 --> 00:10:39.720we're messing around. This is calledan unpreparedness. Don't we look foolish?13300:10:39.879 --> 00:10:41.519That's right. You don't want tolook like this, you know. On13400:10:41.559 --> 00:10:46.120that note, and I also wantedto mention that, I don't feel like13500:10:46.200 --> 00:10:50.759I'm very confident in myself. However, I do want to mention we are13600:10:50.799 --> 00:10:54.320still learning. This is like lesswe're still less than ten episodes. So13700:10:54.480 --> 00:10:58.840thank you for your patients. Forthat, I can't tell. I think13800:11:00.000 --> 00:11:03.480are getting better and better. SoI don't know what I think. I13900:11:03.559 --> 00:11:07.840have them. Oh, no,I gave the adapter to my father.14000:11:07.919 --> 00:11:13.279I think your father, man.I know I said that's so bad fun14100:11:13.399 --> 00:11:16.360all you. Okay? So,yeah, so I'm not gonna be able14200:11:16.399 --> 00:11:20.840to do that. So you guysgonna have to enjoy me in the in14300:11:20.879 --> 00:11:24.799the raw form. You know what? What else will helped? Because every14400:11:24.840 --> 00:11:28.559once in a while, like ifI'm saying and then you want to say14500:11:28.600 --> 00:11:31.080something right away, because actually worksout great. Um, it doesn't let14600:11:31.120 --> 00:11:35.960us talk over each other, likewhat, cuts off like that? Right.14700:11:35.159 --> 00:11:41.919Yeah, so that gets perfect.So, AH, we'll get you14800:11:43.000 --> 00:11:45.600set up. What do you havea laptop? Do you have a laptop?14900:11:46.960 --> 00:11:48.159I mean, I have a deathtopover there. I could try,15000:11:48.159 --> 00:11:50.679but I don't. Once again,I don't want everyone here in our ship.15100:11:52.440 --> 00:11:56.960What? What? What? Howis it different? Because the deathtop15200:11:58.080 --> 00:12:03.200isn't okay, so in your room. It's in the office and the office15300:12:03.320 --> 00:12:05.639is closer. First of all,it's like all wooden in there, so15400:12:05.679 --> 00:12:11.399it's like wait, but it's great, Um, the bedroom. So I15500:12:11.440 --> 00:12:18.279don't rile the dogs up and ship. That would be yeah, Um,15600:12:18.320 --> 00:12:20.840but I don't care. I'll try, because I was gonna try it anyways,15700:12:20.919 --> 00:12:24.799and then see if it's better.But that's probably when we do a15800:12:24.879 --> 00:12:28.600video, because that will probably Ohyeah, that'd be good. Yeah,15900:12:28.759 --> 00:12:35.000because then you're my video is horrid. What is this landscape? Horizontal?16000:12:35.720 --> 00:12:41.279You're portrait really get yours? Mineis because mine's on the computer with the16100:12:41.360 --> 00:12:48.919camp yeah, okay. So,so my new computer. You're like,16200:12:50.000 --> 00:12:52.399Oh, it must be nice.Yeah, I spent five dollars. It's16300:12:52.440 --> 00:12:58.480not even like a big deal.Oh, I know. All Right,16400:12:58.480 --> 00:13:03.200Um, so you got you golook at this. I'm so professional right16500:13:03.200 --> 00:13:07.440now. Watch this. Wait,what the Hell's going on? It's the16600:13:09.080 --> 00:13:13.120honey. I shrunk the kids.Honey. Yeah, do you remember that16700:13:13.159 --> 00:13:16.879movie from the nineties? Yeah,I love the movie. What are you16800:13:16.879 --> 00:13:20.480talking about? What's the grass?The grass in the background? I don't16900:13:20.480 --> 00:13:24.080see any grass in the background.I don't either, but you had it17000:13:24.120 --> 00:13:28.320about two minutes ago. Are yousure it's a plant? It just shows17100:13:28.360 --> 00:13:35.159up. I'm talking about the zoombackground. Nothing happens, right, oh,17200:13:35.320 --> 00:13:39.080it's just showing a filter. I'man idiot. Okay, and just17300:13:39.120 --> 00:13:43.639the picture. As you know,what, today is not my day.17400:13:43.639 --> 00:13:48.759I want to talk about that.Yeah, let's let's uh like Doctor S.17500:13:48.759 --> 00:13:52.519Well, Um, I'm gonna shrinkthe kids. Or do you want17600:13:52.559 --> 00:13:54.559it to be on the Golden GateBridge, or do you want me to17700:13:54.600 --> 00:13:58.600be out and out of space.Let's do space. You got a baby,17800:13:58.639 --> 00:14:05.120all right, Um, I don'tget out here. How do you17900:14:05.159 --> 00:14:09.399hear? How do you go out? Oh, my God, in space.18000:14:09.399 --> 00:14:13.120I don't know. Oh, thereyou are, you. You got18100:14:13.120 --> 00:14:22.000a concert back from it in coolingmen. So that's why I have the18200:14:22.039 --> 00:14:30.759house alone again on Friday. Everyone'sgoing on vacation without me. Why?18300:14:31.759 --> 00:14:35.720Why didn't? Yeah, you know, you have you noticed the theme here18400:14:35.759 --> 00:14:41.879in my family? Yeah, theylove going on vacation without me. I'm18500:14:41.879 --> 00:14:43.639not gonna like. I mean,that happens to me too, but I18600:14:43.639 --> 00:14:48.679want to hear you. You're you, nothing at all. Just that is18700:14:48.720 --> 00:14:54.559exactly it. But that's weird.But what happened was my sisters. So18800:14:54.879 --> 00:14:58.120my it's weird, because you tellme if this isn't weird. My Mom18900:14:58.120 --> 00:15:03.799and dad's good friend and who livedin here. We're probably the richest people19000:15:03.840 --> 00:15:09.919in here, right, but thereare great friends, good people. Um,19100:15:09.080 --> 00:15:13.960and then they recently sold their houseand moved. They had a house19200:15:13.960 --> 00:15:18.840in Colorado as well, so theylive out there now. They have some19300:15:18.360 --> 00:15:22.440businesses, you know, they havea bunch of businesses and property around here.19400:15:22.559 --> 00:15:28.360So sometimes they're over here. ANYWAYS, they're up north. They see19500:15:28.399 --> 00:15:31.720my sister a lot and brother inlaw a lot because they're up there in19600:15:31.759 --> 00:15:37.840that area. Because another one ofour friends in here down that where you19700:15:37.879 --> 00:15:43.519are right now? Yeah, inthe SCULF community, right, my parents,19800:15:43.679 --> 00:15:46.840my parents friends. So one ofthem sold in here, lives in19900:15:46.879 --> 00:15:50.159Colorado, the other one, buthe traveled to Um, where my sisters20000:15:50.200 --> 00:15:54.360at, visited my sister because hehe was in Maine and in the era20100:15:54.480 --> 00:15:56.639he dropped by my sisters and brotherin law's house to say hi, right,20200:15:58.639 --> 00:16:00.759and then he invited them out,you know, one of those like20300:16:02.120 --> 00:16:06.639half as rich people invites, likehey, come out to our place,20400:16:06.720 --> 00:16:11.519about park city? Yeah, it'sUtah, not Colorado, and it's like20500:16:11.799 --> 00:16:17.559fucking crazy, I guess, butyou know why. But so they said20600:16:17.639 --> 00:16:19.320yes and they did it and theymade plans to do it and then my20700:16:19.399 --> 00:16:23.759mom and dad decided to go tothey said Hey, mom and dad,20800:16:23.759 --> 00:16:27.000you should do this too. Likefirst of all my mom and dad were20900:16:27.039 --> 00:16:34.559like kind of weird that you're makingvacations plans with our friends Um, but21000:16:34.720 --> 00:16:41.519we're coming. I go, Oh, you guys are losers. I said,21100:16:41.519 --> 00:16:44.559didn't this happen? Uh, fourand a half weeks ago too,21200:16:44.639 --> 00:16:47.799and I take care of everything.Yeah, it did. Didn't happen when21300:16:47.799 --> 00:16:52.000my best friend's wedding. Yeah,you guys, fucking everyone. Good night.21400:16:52.919 --> 00:17:02.240And do you at that corner?You know? I'm just like,21500:17:02.480 --> 00:17:06.279at least they ask me. Youknow what it is. If you know21600:17:06.359 --> 00:17:08.480him, dead broke, if youknow, I have because if that's your21700:17:08.480 --> 00:17:11.359concern, if you have, Imean I don't know what else you can21800:17:11.359 --> 00:17:15.960say. If I if you knewfor a fact I had negative two million21900:17:15.000 --> 00:17:18.119dollars in my account, please askme. Let me tell you. I22000:17:18.160 --> 00:17:22.720can't. You're not gonna go andinvite yourself. You are polite enough to22100:17:22.799 --> 00:17:30.240invite. Ask for wait for theinvitation and I ain't going to. Let's22200:17:27.440 --> 00:17:34.680get invite me. I'm not going. But they invited my sister first and22300:17:34.680 --> 00:17:38.640then my parents. I can tellyou exactly why. Why He'p please tell22400:17:38.680 --> 00:17:45.039me, because you do not havea significant other. You have. Why22500:17:45.039 --> 00:17:53.319did they invite my Um, sisteror brother in law at all? Sister22600:17:53.519 --> 00:17:59.359and brother in law, they're acouple. whine. Why invite them at22700:17:59.400 --> 00:18:04.960all? Because there are a couple? There's Are you? Do you have22800:18:06.000 --> 00:18:10.359a significant out of there to goon this trip. No, but there's22900:18:10.400 --> 00:18:14.000like, okay, it happens tome all the time. That's why I'm23000:18:14.039 --> 00:18:18.880saying that. The point is there'sno special this is an imprompt to invite.23100:18:18.920 --> 00:18:22.359It wasn't planned, it wasn't nothing. And then for them to say,23200:18:22.759 --> 00:18:27.839Mom and Dad, you should come, it's just very weird. Well,23300:18:29.359 --> 00:18:33.440can I guarantee you if I didhave a significant other, they wouldn't23400:18:33.440 --> 00:18:36.720ask me. has nothing to dowith that. The fact is it's just23500:18:36.880 --> 00:18:41.279sucking weird. My parents friends askedmy hang out with my sister's younger than23600:18:41.319 --> 00:18:45.480me. That's fucking weird, nomatter how you put it. Okay,23700:18:45.680 --> 00:18:49.440well, I I agree it's weird, and them for the and then for23800:18:49.480 --> 00:18:56.000them to ask my invite my parentsto their own friend's house. Yeah,23900:18:56.000 --> 00:19:02.319that's weird, but they don't work. Who you're parents and you work.24000:19:03.680 --> 00:19:07.359So what's your point? My pointis if they're going to invite people,24100:19:07.359 --> 00:19:11.480they're going to invite the people thathave but they don't an entire like I24200:19:11.519 --> 00:19:15.759do have that fucking entire like.I have an entire month off, you24300:19:15.799 --> 00:19:19.160know, or and you can taketime off, and they know that I've24400:19:19.200 --> 00:19:25.200worked for him he knows that.The point is it's not just niceolated incident.24500:19:25.200 --> 00:19:29.680It happens a lot, and that'swhere I'm saying it's because you don't24600:19:29.680 --> 00:19:36.680have a significant other. So itbecomes like we're going as couples. Because24700:19:36.720 --> 00:19:41.079it happens to me all the time. I can invite it anymore. The24800:19:41.160 --> 00:19:45.480reason that I bring it up andsay the fact that it's happened a lot24900:19:45.519 --> 00:19:49.279before is because before I've had significantothers, it still didn't happen. Have25000:19:49.440 --> 00:19:56.200had whatever the funk you said anddidn't happen. It's just weird, excuse25100:19:56.279 --> 00:20:00.400you can. It's just weird andyou grew. My parents said it's weird25200:20:00.400 --> 00:20:03.960and then they go, yeah,we're coming. So, yeah, I'm25300:20:03.000 --> 00:20:06.839not complaining that. I have thehouse to myself. That's great. What25400:20:06.880 --> 00:20:10.519I'm saying that's weird, like that'sweird. Watch the F but yeah,25500:20:10.519 --> 00:20:14.160how about this? Uh, theytake all the families. They take my25600:20:14.240 --> 00:20:17.799sister and her boyfriend, they takemy brother and her boyfriend and they all25700:20:17.799 --> 00:20:21.680go to Hawaii and they all goto San Francisco. They don't even ask25800:20:22.039 --> 00:20:26.039me, and my brother worried,my dad and my Stepma. Yeah,25900:20:26.039 --> 00:20:30.000well, these people are these aremy actual family. They don't ask me26000:20:30.079 --> 00:20:33.559to come with him to Hawaii.Gives a FUNK, don't? You don't26100:20:33.559 --> 00:20:37.640want to say on that plane,that's a long plane, right, but26200:20:37.720 --> 00:20:41.680it's a vacation that I wouldn't haveto pay for anything. Tell me,26300:20:41.759 --> 00:20:45.799give you the cash. Well,I guess we're on the same page.26400:20:45.960 --> 00:20:52.839We have different solutions. I ain'teven get in the cash either. No,26500:20:52.440 --> 00:20:56.759whatever, whatever, we suck.Clearly that's what it is. No,26600:20:56.920 --> 00:20:59.839not even I'm just saying it's justweird of them to do this.26700:21:00.079 --> 00:21:02.960Uh said, don't you think?And then you start coming out with all26800:21:03.039 --> 00:21:06.359fucking excuses. Why? I'm notbut no, no, I'm not making26900:21:06.440 --> 00:21:08.440excuses. I'm trying to help youput it in perspective. But no,27000:21:08.680 --> 00:21:11.799I get I get it, butisn't it weird? And you don't know27100:21:11.880 --> 00:21:17.559these people either. So it's likeit's a flex. And then it's a27200:21:17.640 --> 00:21:19.519flex for my sister and her husband. Okay, here's what it is.27300:21:19.519 --> 00:21:22.319It's flex for them to offer,flex for them to say, yeah,27400:21:22.440 --> 00:21:26.440we accept the offer and we're gonnapay for the fly out there, to27500:21:26.519 --> 00:21:30.200fucking say it, and the rent. And it's a flex for my parents27600:21:30.200 --> 00:21:33.880to say, yeah, we cankeep up with that too, even though27700:21:33.640 --> 00:21:41.799safe from nineteen seventy fucking four andinflation is fucking sense, and we're gonna27800:21:41.839 --> 00:21:45.680pay with with two thousand and twentytwo prices, with nineteen seventy four money.27900:21:45.920 --> 00:21:48.920Get it fucking straight, like thesepeople don't know shit about money.28000:21:48.200 --> 00:21:53.640anyways. Go on, can youplease? Just we're both working on this,28100:21:53.799 --> 00:21:59.799but just with the effort. I'lllet it out to the major ones.28200:22:00.000 --> 00:22:04.880If it's it's gratuitous, or I'lledit the gratuitous one. You know.28300:22:04.960 --> 00:22:11.839The other thing that I think isthat it's good. Yeah, it's28400:22:11.880 --> 00:22:15.119good. It's good we're getting theseout. I think it also takes shorter28500:22:15.160 --> 00:22:19.920and shorter time to edit this stuff. But Um, yeah, it's like,28600:22:21.599 --> 00:22:26.920okay, I guess I'll be asecond class citizen because I'm doubly being28700:22:26.960 --> 00:22:30.920punished. I don't have a significantdonor, so I can't because they started28800:22:30.960 --> 00:22:34.839inviting me again because I have achild and they want to have oh it28900:22:34.880 --> 00:22:40.880would be great experience for her.I'm like what, what the but what29000:22:41.000 --> 00:22:48.519I just realized right now is howwe are complaining about something so like elitist29100:22:49.480 --> 00:22:55.880that I feel guilty at this momentI don't get to go. I'm not29200:22:55.960 --> 00:23:00.880complaining about that. I'm not complainingabout a vacation. I'm complaining about the29300:23:00.960 --> 00:23:07.200principle behind this. Isn't it weird? Not even a complaint. Isn't it29400:23:07.319 --> 00:23:12.240weird? It's very weird. Yes, and it's not like, oh,29500:23:12.359 --> 00:23:18.920big conspiracy weird. So isn't itweird? That's weird. Yeah, and29600:23:18.960 --> 00:23:22.160then the fact that it's happened beforefor numerous but that's what I what threw29700:23:22.200 --> 00:23:25.160me off. Yeah, but it'sall for numerous different reasons. But and29800:23:25.240 --> 00:23:26.680I don't care, I'm not doit. But the point is, I29900:23:26.759 --> 00:23:33.400got the place myself's apart. Youcan invite no buddy. I have no30000:23:33.480 --> 00:23:37.079friends. I don't have friends either. Hey, you know what? You30100:23:37.119 --> 00:23:41.119know how hard it is to makefriends after a certain age, because then30200:23:41.119 --> 00:23:48.039it's like, uh, why,it's easy ever log yeah, you have30300:23:48.119 --> 00:23:52.359a lot of friends after you justsaid you have no friends. Got It.30400:23:52.920 --> 00:23:56.319I don't want them. Trust me. You've seen what it's out there.30500:23:56.720 --> 00:24:03.440It's a night there, like what'sthat Zombie, Zombie show? UH,30600:24:03.559 --> 00:24:08.160walking dead. What it's like outthere? Bunch zombies trying to just30700:24:08.519 --> 00:24:14.240stuck the life out of here.brainless, brainless people walking around your friend.30800:24:15.759 --> 00:24:18.640Oh, what a tough place tobe. People want to be your30900:24:18.680 --> 00:24:21.799friend. Yeah, I don't.Do you want me friends? ZOMBIES?31000:24:21.839 --> 00:24:25.960No, I already have a planfor zombies, and I've been trying to31100:24:26.160 --> 00:24:30.359discuss this for a while now.But we you don't are you're not into31200:24:30.359 --> 00:24:33.440the Zombie culture and already already here. That's why you don't understand. No,31300:24:33.599 --> 00:24:37.000that's what I do understand, andthat's why I have a plan in31400:24:37.079 --> 00:24:40.279place. No, the zombies areare us. You don't know this.31500:24:40.440 --> 00:24:45.319Look, everybody. Go outside,look around. Everybody's looking where, down31600:24:45.440 --> 00:24:48.799on their phone, not even infront of them. Looks like Zombie land31700:24:48.839 --> 00:24:55.839out there. That's the way.Are Eating each other for sustenance or whatever.31800:24:55.880 --> 00:24:57.759How that word does a matter oftime. It can't all happen at31900:24:57.759 --> 00:25:02.440once. Fell you know that iphonedidn't come as the first cell phone,32000:25:02.480 --> 00:25:04.519but now we're all looking down atthe phone, not even the computer.32100:25:04.759 --> 00:25:11.160If the Wifi, and this iswhat it's just Wifi, goes, we're32200:25:11.240 --> 00:25:17.640that this whole system, the wholeworld, is done. If WIFI seasons32300:25:17.680 --> 00:25:22.160to exist, that's what the ifsomebody wants to attack our country. That's32400:25:22.160 --> 00:25:27.640what they should do off the Wifi. That's why cyber security is a great32500:25:27.640 --> 00:25:34.160field to be in. The probablyget paid. Yeah, you pretty much32600:25:34.160 --> 00:25:41.599set your own price. Thankfully it'sthey do have sanctions against cyber security and32700:25:41.920 --> 00:25:48.359BIOS fucking yeah, warfare, butstill not that anyone's gonna follow. That32800:25:48.880 --> 00:25:56.200doesn't matter. You can it.Oh, sanctions, okay, I'm gonna32900:25:56.359 --> 00:26:02.519do whatever I want. Still clearly. Well, I mean, you can't33000:26:02.599 --> 00:26:04.160drop a mustard gas bomb get awaywith it. Let's put it down.33100:26:04.200 --> 00:26:07.279Yeah, I mean, yeah,and that's why it's so hard and so33200:26:07.359 --> 00:26:11.519much harder. But then, okay, so what would happen? But this33300:26:11.599 --> 00:26:17.480is me really I don't know.If you drop a bomb, mustard bomb33400:26:17.599 --> 00:26:22.279or whatever, and you get sanctioned, what happens to thet if somebody drops33500:26:22.279 --> 00:26:26.119a mustard gas bomb or a lukeor something like against that, nobody's getting33600:26:26.119 --> 00:26:32.000sanctioned. It's World War three.Okay, so it's like retality, like33700:26:32.559 --> 00:26:37.240everyone's final either panic or retaliation.Nobody's gonna sit there and say, Oh,33800:26:37.480 --> 00:26:41.359I'm in trouble. Yeah, Iless all this plays out. Let's33900:26:41.400 --> 00:26:47.119call let's call him up for sentyou think they're gonna answer that's floating that34000:26:47.240 --> 00:26:52.920nuclear rocket and aiming. At thatpoint it's like whoever's first? Yeah,34100:26:53.240 --> 00:26:57.039no, but you're right. Ithink cyber stuff is the most scary.34200:26:57.720 --> 00:27:00.680Saw a movie about it recently.I forget what it was, but cyber34300:27:02.119 --> 00:27:07.480and then like if people can startlike screwing with DNA and like make people34400:27:08.480 --> 00:27:15.960that scaring, that's a scary thing. Ai, like I robot. That's34500:27:15.000 --> 00:27:21.720a that could absolutely happen right now. And who knows that? Who knows34600:27:21.759 --> 00:27:26.359it is? I mean like theBoston Dynamics, is it that have those34700:27:26.920 --> 00:27:33.680crazy military dog looking yeah, butso me and my dad were talking about34800:27:33.680 --> 00:27:37.000this the other day and and uh, he listens to NPR, but that34900:27:37.079 --> 00:27:40.559was like one of the coolest thingswe were listening to at the same time35000:27:41.079 --> 00:27:44.599and that's what they're saying. Butthen I was my dad's an engineer,35100:27:44.640 --> 00:27:48.880so I'm like, well, canthat actually happen? And he's like yes,35200:27:49.000 --> 00:27:52.640but in order for it to bea reality, they would have to35300:27:52.720 --> 00:27:59.200be like a panel of ethics orlike a like a whole company that there35400:28:00.039 --> 00:28:04.119would be able to have these stopbuttons to like shut everything down. But35500:28:06.240 --> 00:28:08.359who the hell knows what that's gonnalook like, especially now, looking what35600:28:08.440 --> 00:28:11.200the government looks like now. IsHe's like, Oh, yeah, I'm35700:28:11.240 --> 00:28:17.079cool, I'm fine, just kidding. All these robots are going to do35800:28:17.160 --> 00:28:21.039all this stuff and I don't care. But I do think that could happen35900:28:21.759 --> 00:28:25.200the I robot. I mean we'rethere now, youn't her father's right,36000:28:25.319 --> 00:28:27.400like yeah, it's obviously gonna havejust like a dirt bike as a kill36100:28:27.480 --> 00:28:32.559switch of cars you break. Everythingisn't going to have to have a security36200:28:32.839 --> 00:28:34.480place and measure. But Hey,are you going to use it when times36300:28:34.519 --> 00:28:37.880coming? Are you're gonna be nearit when the Times come? Are you36400:28:37.920 --> 00:28:40.839gonna be able to whos? Areyou gonna want to, or are you36500:28:40.880 --> 00:28:44.519gonna use it from Alice? Areyou going paid to not to, not36600:28:44.680 --> 00:28:47.880do it? Exactly? I thinkI go to feedes rate into this statement36700:28:47.920 --> 00:28:51.839is I think until people stop actingon it self, interests in the world36800:28:51.880 --> 00:28:59.480will not get better. And Yeah, there's yeah, because what's in other36900:28:59.559 --> 00:29:03.000people's yeah, other people's lives,and that's if you give it, if37000:29:03.000 --> 00:29:07.400you care. Otherwise, if youjust want to win and get ahead and37100:29:07.440 --> 00:29:10.839screw everything else, you know.Yeah, I mean that was the whole37200:29:11.400 --> 00:29:14.039last couple of years and I'm notgoing to get into it because that's just37300:29:14.519 --> 00:29:18.400that fairs me up. It's like, why didn't everybody come out with this37400:29:18.519 --> 00:29:22.759information three years ago? But whatever, it's fake news. You know that.37500:29:26.200 --> 00:29:30.160Um, yeah, fucking it's soweird. It's so weird. Okay,37600:29:30.200 --> 00:29:33.400so what I want to say?It was like, yeah, like,37700:29:33.720 --> 00:29:37.359so, personally, like thinking ofall that ship puts me in a37800:29:37.440 --> 00:29:41.680fucket. It puts me in asnot depressed state, but like and not37900:29:41.799 --> 00:29:48.799hopeless, but just not angry,not despair, but almost like half of38000:29:48.799 --> 00:29:53.119those all rolled into one. Youknow. Yeah, I'm just frustrated that.38100:29:53.279 --> 00:29:56.680Like it's like when is this goingto get better? When's People's Moral38200:29:56.880 --> 00:30:02.720Hump is gonna Reset? Yeah,the right direction and everyone's gonna you know,38300:30:03.000 --> 00:30:06.480and these are such blanket statements thatI get frostered and I get down38400:30:06.559 --> 00:30:12.640and I get is that discouraged?It's all all of it. If I'm38500:30:12.640 --> 00:30:17.519discouraged at it, there's a reasonI'm discouraged and that reason probably makes me38600:30:17.599 --> 00:30:21.960mad, you know, and rightnow it's like the self serving of people,38700:30:22.079 --> 00:30:26.319you know. And so, anyways, when you get down or if38800:30:26.319 --> 00:30:27.960I get down or if I getoff track and stuff like that. So38900:30:29.359 --> 00:30:33.240you're you have the music business,where you tell artists what to do,39000:30:33.400 --> 00:30:37.200you know, and try to helpthem, um, market right and and39100:30:37.200 --> 00:30:41.119and all that stuff. What.So if they get in a Rut,39200:30:41.119 --> 00:30:45.279what do you tell them? Folksat home, a couple of a couple39300:30:45.319 --> 00:30:48.519of things that have worked and acouple of things that have not worked.39400:30:48.920 --> 00:30:56.519I walked through exactly where they started, what their thoughts were at that point39500:30:56.519 --> 00:31:00.839where they thought they would be.Did they believe in themselves? Did they39600:31:00.880 --> 00:31:07.160think it was impossible? And thenI kind of go over with them what39700:31:07.319 --> 00:31:12.079they've accomplished, but not just whatthey've accomplished, what hard work it took39800:31:12.160 --> 00:31:18.319to get to that next point.And then I remind them also then this39900:31:18.440 --> 00:31:22.480is like over a couple of days, I remind them every single reason why40000:31:22.480 --> 00:31:26.680they told me that they wanted tobe there, and then I connect that40100:31:26.799 --> 00:31:32.759with, you know, how theirlife has changed to get to the endgame.40200:31:32.799 --> 00:31:34.960So, for example, Um,Oh, I'm gonna be famous,40300:31:36.279 --> 00:31:37.680is usually where it starts. Oh, I want to make money, and40400:31:37.720 --> 00:31:41.160then when you start to get intoit, you see things like, oh,40500:31:41.279 --> 00:31:44.720I don't want to be associated withthis. I don't want to be40600:31:44.799 --> 00:31:48.079associated with that. I kind ofwant to do it based on like leaving40700:31:48.119 --> 00:31:53.160a legacy for my family and doingit to sustain a career where I can40800:31:55.119 --> 00:31:59.119uh, you know, just liveoff music, not be famous and being40900:31:59.160 --> 00:32:02.160asshole all the time. So it'sit's more or less, you know,41000:32:02.279 --> 00:32:10.519connecting their new goals with how they'reold goals have progressed over time, and41100:32:10.559 --> 00:32:16.920it helps, because most people don'trealize how far they've come because they're so41200:32:17.039 --> 00:32:23.960focused on tomorrow. When and itsucks looking at yesterday because it feels like,41300:32:24.359 --> 00:32:30.519you know, yesterday was was waslike where you started. So it's41400:32:30.519 --> 00:32:32.119like you shouldn't look at where youstarted because you only want to look to41500:32:32.160 --> 00:32:36.519the future, like everyone's told like, Oh, eyes on the future,41600:32:36.599 --> 00:32:43.200don't think about you could have doneyet exactly. But you know, you41700:32:43.559 --> 00:32:50.200need to look at it, butlook at it from the point where like41800:32:50.559 --> 00:32:53.160what the fun? Yeah, it'shuge. It's like it's always a big41900:32:53.200 --> 00:32:57.920deal. Like do you take abig picture perspective for them? That usually42000:32:57.920 --> 00:33:00.880helps, usually because that's a goodthat's a good advice. I think.42100:33:00.279 --> 00:33:07.240Yeah, a big picture and thenlike milestones, they might be small.42200:33:07.319 --> 00:33:10.119They might seem small, but thenI talked about everything they did to get42300:33:10.160 --> 00:33:15.799there, you know, and oneleads to another, even if it's tiny.42400:33:15.119 --> 00:33:17.279That's why they say the first thingyou should do is make your bed42500:33:17.319 --> 00:33:22.119in the morning. You know,it's one task to get you and I42600:33:22.200 --> 00:33:27.839do that and it like it may, it makes the day seem possible.42700:33:28.680 --> 00:33:30.799At least it kicks it off inthe current right direction. You completed the42800:33:30.880 --> 00:33:34.279task. You're up one. Butyeah, I think a lot of people,42900:33:34.319 --> 00:33:38.400myself included, not even related tomusic, don't take a step back43000:33:38.440 --> 00:33:40.880in the big pay like, forexample, like and look at the big43100:33:40.920 --> 00:33:45.759picture and compare how much progress youneed. So that's a good that's a43200:33:45.799 --> 00:33:50.599good way of doing that. UH, because even with my back recovery year,43300:33:50.799 --> 00:33:52.599a year and two months ago,I couldn't walk at all. Now43400:33:52.799 --> 00:33:57.799I can. I can walk,even though in pain every day and complaining.43500:33:58.079 --> 00:34:01.279At least I'm not in a wheelchair. You know exactly. And I43600:34:01.400 --> 00:34:05.640used to do. I used todo, but I now stay away from43700:34:05.839 --> 00:34:08.920it. Could be worse, becauseit could always be worse for anybody.43800:34:09.039 --> 00:34:15.920So that's not a motivation, youknow. That's that's like saying relaxed at43900:34:15.920 --> 00:34:17.800this point. Yeah, it's likeit's not a big deal. It is44000:34:17.800 --> 00:34:21.599a big deal if it is abig deal for that person. You know,44100:34:21.639 --> 00:34:23.440I don't want to play all thethings that you pet peeve. I'm44200:34:23.440 --> 00:34:30.599going to write because you're an assholein your mind. On my tombstone,44300:34:31.960 --> 00:34:37.239I'm making a list up until now. But think about, think about what44400:34:37.280 --> 00:34:43.960we we talked about in the lastepisode with Um, with your recovery from44500:34:44.039 --> 00:34:47.679everything. People don't. That doesn'thappen. People don't do that all the44600:34:47.719 --> 00:34:58.119time. Most I don't know.I mean if anything in life, whatever44700:34:58.239 --> 00:35:05.079happens. I feel like that's thatis an accomplishment that regular any person,44800:35:05.199 --> 00:35:07.039can't do. You know, Ithink. Okay, let me ask you44900:35:07.079 --> 00:35:13.480this question, because of thinking isokay. Do you think it is?45000:35:13.760 --> 00:35:16.360Do you think it works like this? Okay, I've accomplished that so far.45100:35:16.760 --> 00:35:19.880You know, kicking that, that'shard to tell. You know,45200:35:20.039 --> 00:35:23.519I'm I'm within the three percent thatI've kicked it and then the point zero,45300:35:23.599 --> 00:35:27.679zero five that have kept with kickingit right. Yeah, it's so45400:35:27.719 --> 00:35:30.079bad, but but thankful. Yeah, okay, we'll pass that. But45500:35:30.559 --> 00:35:37.079been a professional weake boarder, whichis you know, very weird to do,45600:35:37.199 --> 00:35:39.480but it's not a common thing.So do you think like somebody's,45700:35:39.920 --> 00:35:45.559I don't know, so called,quote unquote, success could be behind them45800:35:45.559 --> 00:35:51.280at that point, or do youthink it's just up to work? I45900:35:51.320 --> 00:36:00.159think successes is uh, is,undefined and UH UH and in it.46000:36:00.119 --> 00:36:04.639Yeah, so it's about putting inthe work. It's not like everyone has46100:36:04.679 --> 00:36:07.320a certain amount of like, oh, that was your shot, you blew46200:36:07.320 --> 00:36:08.679it, because I think a lotof people want to get out of that46300:36:08.760 --> 00:36:14.360mindset. Oh my God, yeah, my success defined when I was twenty.46400:36:14.559 --> 00:36:22.079My success was marriage, graduation,master's degree, child make over,46500:36:22.199 --> 00:36:25.920fifty grand before the age of thirty. That was killed it. I killed46600:36:25.960 --> 00:36:30.119it, but now I look back, I see that as yeah, I46700:36:30.239 --> 00:36:35.840kind of see that as okay,I did that, but that is not46800:36:36.199 --> 00:36:42.719it did not. It did notfrom then on, right what, you're46900:36:42.719 --> 00:36:45.159just gonna make a goal from thelike. Once you reach your goal,47000:36:45.199 --> 00:36:46.400you're gonna make a new one andthen if you don't, then, yeah,47100:36:46.440 --> 00:36:50.639things get depressing. It was agoal, but then it ended up,47200:36:50.840 --> 00:36:54.800in my mind, being a terribleway to spend my life, thinking47300:36:54.840 --> 00:36:59.599that that's the end goal and evenlooking back now, and I told her47400:36:59.599 --> 00:37:01.639to, might add, and mydad's really good, because I was like47500:37:01.800 --> 00:37:07.320man, I really wasted like thebest thing I got out of it,47600:37:07.360 --> 00:37:09.920and you know it's amazing, ofcourse, is my daughter. But I47700:37:10.000 --> 00:37:14.920have been struggling, especially now thatI had I lost my job for a47800:37:15.039 --> 00:37:17.719year. I'm struggling with the factthat, wow, those ten years that47900:37:17.760 --> 00:37:22.280I was focusing so much on thosethings, I wasn't thinking about anything else.48000:37:22.559 --> 00:37:24.880Is this good for me? Isthis good for me? I don't48100:37:24.880 --> 00:37:29.760know. That's all. I focusedon the end goal and that was not.48200:37:31.000 --> 00:37:35.880Now, looking back, that wasthat is not a definition of success48300:37:36.199 --> 00:37:42.639at all. For other people itis. And but what's working like a48400:37:42.719 --> 00:37:46.119means to an end. Yeah,like I thought that was the ultimate happiness.48500:37:46.159 --> 00:37:49.960I was like, I fucking didit. I'm fifth, I am48600:37:49.960 --> 00:37:53.599thirty, I did it all offboxes at that point. Yeah, it48700:37:53.639 --> 00:37:58.239was checking off boxes, but Ithat was what you know, that's what48800:37:58.280 --> 00:38:05.400I thought success was, checking offboxes. But yeah, but it makes48900:38:05.440 --> 00:38:09.239me feel better for not having anyof those things. Yeah, I mean,49000:38:09.320 --> 00:38:13.800and that's the other thing, likeI honestly think I should have put49100:38:13.880 --> 00:38:15.320way more. I got, likeI said, I got married at twenty49200:38:15.360 --> 00:38:20.920three. I mean that to me, all right, looking back after one49300:38:21.000 --> 00:38:27.000year of dating, like, okay, like that's the kind of decisions that49400:38:27.079 --> 00:38:31.079I was like success. Yeah,that face is exactly what I'm talking to49500:38:31.079 --> 00:38:37.000you. You're married to a prettypersuasive human being. Okay. So here's49600:38:37.000 --> 00:38:45.400another thing I realized through my tenfifteen years of therapy is that is that49700:38:45.719 --> 00:38:52.519it's for me. It was thechallenge of, um, fighting off other49800:38:52.039 --> 00:39:00.079females to be the ultimate uh,you know, the box of success has49900:39:00.119 --> 00:39:05.920been checked off because, you know, as you can remember, maybe there50000:39:06.000 --> 00:39:12.800was a couple. There's people hereand there that I literally Um, okay,50100:39:12.800 --> 00:39:16.000this you know this girl. I'mgoing to change her name. Um,50200:39:16.039 --> 00:39:22.719it was during Halloween when UH andjust put us out. That's true.50300:39:22.800 --> 00:39:24.400Well, her name is Lauren.Actually doesn't matter. It's not like50400:39:24.440 --> 00:39:30.320she'll ever hear this. Uh.It was at the same time where it50500:39:30.400 --> 00:39:36.679was like around the same time wemet Lauren and and he went to the50600:39:36.760 --> 00:39:40.280Halloween Party together, the University HalloweenParty together, and I went with my50700:39:40.360 --> 00:39:47.360friends and we came back and,Um, we came home first and I50800:39:47.440 --> 00:39:53.320was watching out the door to seeif they were going to come back and50900:39:53.599 --> 00:39:58.320I saw them come back or Ididn't see the come back. It was51000:39:58.360 --> 00:40:01.159taking too long. I knocked onthe door and either you or brad answered,51100:40:01.800 --> 00:40:05.840and I've been over so many timesat that point that it wasn't you51200:40:05.840 --> 00:40:08.119know, it was normal. AndI was like Hey, can I wait51300:40:08.159 --> 00:40:10.400and you know in the room.IS HE gonna be home soon? They're51400:40:10.400 --> 00:40:15.000like yeah, sure, and sowhen I get when they come back,51500:40:16.000 --> 00:40:22.599um, her stuff was in hisroom and she had been drinking and he51600:40:22.679 --> 00:40:23.840was like, oh no, she'sjust, you know, just she was51700:40:23.880 --> 00:40:28.719just gonna stay here because of howmuch she's been drinking, and I was51800:40:28.719 --> 00:40:30.639sitting on the bed and I waslike, well, I'm not moving.51900:40:30.679 --> 00:40:34.760So if she wants to stay here, she can. She can go on52000:40:34.800 --> 00:40:37.719the couch, but I'm gonna bestaying here, right on this bed.52100:40:37.760 --> 00:40:42.000So y'all make this decision, butI'm not going anywhere. Wait, wait,52200:40:42.079 --> 00:40:51.559so Laura, L M HMM,for L els stuff was on Jay's52300:40:51.760 --> 00:40:57.800floor. Yeah, and he said, was he in the room? Yeah,52400:40:58.199 --> 00:41:00.599and she was in the room.Yeah. Why were you looking out52500:41:00.760 --> 00:41:05.360the wind the door? Because Iwas it was taking too long. I52600:41:05.400 --> 00:41:07.039was waiting for them to come back. It was taking too long. So52700:41:07.119 --> 00:41:10.400that's when I knocked on your guysdoor and I was like hey, can52800:41:10.440 --> 00:41:15.360I say so? I just wenthis room, sat on and when they52900:41:15.400 --> 00:41:17.480came back, she ended up goinghome. Oh, they weren't there yet.53000:41:17.519 --> 00:41:21.039They weren't there yet. They weren'tthere yet, but I waited until53100:41:21.079 --> 00:41:23.960they came home. I thought youwalked in on them. Oh No,53200:41:25.119 --> 00:41:31.800wow, did you know there hookedup? Nope, I don't know for53300:41:31.880 --> 00:41:37.800sure, but what's your hunch?Well, actually, my roommates told me53400:41:37.880 --> 00:41:43.960that that they were making out atthat party, which this was. This53500:41:44.000 --> 00:41:51.599was a university swansord party at oneof those like whack not clubs in the53600:41:51.639 --> 00:41:55.599area. I got kicked out becauseI I stole. I stole the beer53700:41:55.760 --> 00:42:00.360from the the tubs that they had, like the ice tubs. I kicked53800:42:00.360 --> 00:42:06.199out for putting our wristband on andit wasn't I wasn't twenty one. I53900:42:06.199 --> 00:42:07.760think it was the same one.Yeah, I got kicked because I wasn't54000:42:07.760 --> 00:42:14.480twenty one either. I got kickedout because I was too drunk. Yeah,54100:42:15.159 --> 00:42:17.199they're like you gotta go, yougotta go, and we that's why54200:42:17.280 --> 00:42:22.000it was early, because we gotkicked out early. Yeah, yeah,54300:42:22.079 --> 00:42:24.519that guy picked me up and three, he hated me because I taped the54400:42:24.559 --> 00:42:29.559wristband, J ripped off the wristbandoff of him and gave it to when54500:42:29.559 --> 00:42:34.480he left any any or he gotanother one and I put the ends together54600:42:34.599 --> 00:42:37.199with candle wax. I was sittingat the table with the yeah, and54700:42:37.239 --> 00:42:42.079I got the candle wax trying toput it together on such it works,54800:42:42.119 --> 00:42:45.960so we could buy what? Sowe can buy it. Three dollar are54900:42:46.000 --> 00:42:52.079pouring the shots down my mouth.What's that called? Uh, I forget55000:42:52.079 --> 00:42:57.800what it's called. Old, yeah, yeah, when, yeah, and55100:42:57.840 --> 00:43:00.800then you're like it's like this wholething. Yeah, but yeah, she55200:43:00.920 --> 00:43:04.360was like half naked porn on mythroat. That's when I got caught.55300:43:06.400 --> 00:43:08.679But I got a good sex withthem and I was happy I got so55400:43:09.119 --> 00:43:12.480I was so waste so that Ithought, Oh, I was so slick.55500:43:12.559 --> 00:43:15.320Nobody saw me tank a beer fromfrom the ice thing and then like55600:43:15.440 --> 00:43:21.280five minutes later they're like, wait, was that downtown Fort Myers? Was55700:43:21.320 --> 00:43:27.000that place? It's the I think. Actually, you know the place.55800:43:27.840 --> 00:43:30.719No, it wasn't the beach,it was the downtown one. They eventually55900:43:30.719 --> 00:43:35.760had shootings there. Um Downtown,downtown, downtown, downtown, downtown.56000:43:35.400 --> 00:43:39.039I can't remember four Myers, barely. Yeah, the beach one was a56100:43:39.079 --> 00:43:44.840whole different. But yeah, soI was like a little and then I56200:43:44.880 --> 00:43:51.719was dressed like a wall. Yeah, yes, and what's her face was?56300:43:51.840 --> 00:43:58.360As a pirate? I forget whatI was. Probably some hookers looking56400:43:59.280 --> 00:44:05.639whatever. That's everybody in college.Uh. But yeah, I know for56500:44:05.800 --> 00:44:08.199things exactly like this. I haven'tbeen thrown out at the club. They56600:44:08.280 --> 00:44:15.440think, how old are you?Forty? F No, we should do56700:44:15.599 --> 00:44:22.119we should do an episode where weshould go to the club. Alright,56800:44:22.519 --> 00:44:25.199one of us, because both ofus trying to talk over and the club56900:44:25.239 --> 00:44:30.480would be so annoying. Talking tothe clubs impossible. One person goes and57000:44:30.639 --> 00:44:36.440just like yeah, talking about together. We're feeling young. I don't care57100:44:36.679 --> 00:44:39.239if it's documented or not. Ineed to feel young, all right,57200:44:39.280 --> 00:44:43.039and that I would probably need togo there. I will make it to57300:44:43.119 --> 00:44:47.000Florida. Uh, so we coulddo alive. You come in here.57400:44:47.000 --> 00:44:52.039Would just be all sorts of drama. And Steph is in Florida now.57500:44:52.119 --> 00:44:55.039So I had more than one reasonto cool there on the other close,57600:44:55.159 --> 00:45:02.239but did um, yeah, Iknow that's nothing now did. I'm trying57700:45:02.239 --> 00:45:08.719to think. I don't know.I feel like an asshole sometimes because I'm57800:45:08.800 --> 00:45:13.480not, as I am not avery good friend, of keeping up with57900:45:13.519 --> 00:45:17.119people and, you know, makingit a priority, like staff, especially,58000:45:17.679 --> 00:45:22.119yeah, for the people that matterthat I actually, yeah, you58100:45:22.199 --> 00:45:25.159know, care about, which islike five people, because at the rest58200:45:25.199 --> 00:45:29.239of the time I feel like,okay, well, I could be slaving58300:45:29.239 --> 00:45:34.000money by not going out, savingtime by doing things I want to do,58400:45:34.440 --> 00:45:37.639because on my free time, withoutwhen I don't have, you know,58500:45:37.679 --> 00:45:43.559my child for that weekend, thatis like the best forty eight hours58600:45:43.599 --> 00:45:46.280of the month. I could sleepin, I could, you know,58700:45:46.599 --> 00:45:52.039eat popcorn for dinner, like,I can watch stranger things really loud up58800:45:52.079 --> 00:45:57.880until so I that's what I liketo do on those dates. So if,58900:45:58.559 --> 00:46:04.119if people, unless you're extremely worththe time, which of course that59000:46:04.320 --> 00:46:08.000would you would be, then I'mnot going to find I'm not doing anything.59100:46:09.280 --> 00:46:13.000First of all, let me saythank you. I appreciate that.59200:46:13.039 --> 00:46:15.400I'm worth the time, and soare you. Yeah, I know.59300:46:15.679 --> 00:46:19.960No, yeah, I think myfree time is precious and I have plenty59400:46:20.000 --> 00:46:22.719of it. I can imagine yours, you know. Yeah, I'm like,59500:46:22.760 --> 00:46:25.159I get it. At Six amand I don't even have to normally.59600:46:25.760 --> 00:46:30.079I wouldn't have to otherwise, andI'm like, you know, it's59700:46:30.159 --> 00:46:34.960normal stuff. But I'm like ourtime, go to the bath room,59800:46:35.039 --> 00:46:40.519do your homework, but I don'totherwise. But yeah, the hardest job59900:46:40.599 --> 00:46:45.679ever actually is a single mother.I think that's tough. I do it60000:46:45.239 --> 00:46:52.760with pride and I do it right. So very proud of that. Yeah,60100:46:52.880 --> 00:47:00.239but yeah, uh, it makesthese forty eight hours of that unch60200:47:00.840 --> 00:47:09.280more beautiful. Well, it makesthose literally heaven. I could ice cream60300:47:09.320 --> 00:47:14.280without anybody being like oh, likestuff like that. It's so simple.60400:47:14.480 --> 00:47:16.559But so, the next time down, I want you to make a list60500:47:16.559 --> 00:47:20.639of all the things you can dofor those forty hours. You'll automatically look.60600:47:20.679 --> 00:47:23.760You're already smiling. So I know. I'm like this is I got60700:47:23.760 --> 00:47:29.280because I have Sunday. I haveall day Sunday and uh, because Monday60800:47:29.280 --> 00:47:31.199I have to work. She comesback on Tuesday. But so Monday doesn't60900:47:31.199 --> 00:47:42.159county. Okay, okay, uh, but yeah, so I don't know.61000:47:42.280 --> 00:47:47.480I don't I know you're feeling.Do you think you're feeling like down,61100:47:47.559 --> 00:47:52.239like depressed style, or is itjust like things are weird this week61200:47:52.320 --> 00:47:59.639because of the your parents and thatwhole situation. That question was just for61300:48:00.079 --> 00:48:05.840Um, the people at home,yes, but for me this week it's61400:48:05.880 --> 00:48:08.480just been everything has just been it'slike if I had a period, it61500:48:08.519 --> 00:48:14.760would be like I'm my period orP M mass, whatever makes you moody.61600:48:14.920 --> 00:48:21.079Like everything pisses me off. Idon't know. Okay, maybe it's61700:48:21.079 --> 00:48:24.559a full moon this week too,I think, because the people I've talked61800:48:24.559 --> 00:48:30.000to this week it wasn't there weekeither like something went wrong or something aggravating61900:48:30.039 --> 00:48:34.440them or you know, you knowwork, everything that could go wrong is62000:48:34.480 --> 00:48:37.239going wrong. But it's nothing that'snot sexible, it's nothing life ending and62100:48:37.239 --> 00:48:42.679it's all laughable. But it's justso really, I don't have any issues.62200:48:42.880 --> 00:48:45.480I was just saying in general foryour artists, like if they're in62300:48:45.519 --> 00:48:49.559a Rut, which I've seen alot of artists be like that, and62400:48:49.719 --> 00:48:53.480people you know what's what's your firstthing that you that you try to get62500:48:53.519 --> 00:48:57.719them out of it, you know, and that's something that has devices taking62600:48:57.760 --> 00:49:02.039a step back, because so peopledo that. Yeah, because it's hard62700:49:02.199 --> 00:49:06.519for anybody. It's hard for me. I need to take my own advice62800:49:06.519 --> 00:49:10.239and sometimes I don't like. Yeah, like, especially right now. I62900:49:10.280 --> 00:49:19.920went from thinking that I had everythingperfect to losing everything, and everything happened63000:49:19.960 --> 00:49:24.519within a couple of years. Sothe divorce happened and then I, Um,63100:49:24.800 --> 00:49:29.599uh, well, pass for alittle bit. COVID UH lost.63200:49:30.639 --> 00:49:35.639They cut our salary because of COVID. Then I messed up my knee.63300:49:35.639 --> 00:49:39.159I couldn't walk for like a yearuntil I got that fixed, and then63400:49:40.519 --> 00:49:45.599I couldn't afford my apartment anymore becauseof Covid, so I had him move63500:49:45.719 --> 00:49:50.480in with my parents. And soat that point I was like, I63600:49:50.519 --> 00:49:55.079am a loser, you know,even to myself. So, Um,63700:49:55.119 --> 00:50:00.079that took a while because I didn'treally have it was covid, so is63800:50:00.119 --> 00:50:06.199weird already, but it was payingit. It was the fact that it's63900:50:06.239 --> 00:50:15.320so expensive to have to buy ahouse and also, especially for Hispanic families64000:50:15.840 --> 00:50:22.159and in general, it's becoming morecommon to have a multi generational household.64100:50:22.639 --> 00:50:24.400My grandma lives here, she usedto, I mean before she died.64200:50:24.679 --> 00:50:29.480My parents lived here, all mysiblings lived here before they went to college.64300:50:30.039 --> 00:50:32.320Um, so it was a greatenvironment for my daughter to grow up64400:50:32.360 --> 00:50:36.719in because she got to know thefamily that otherwise she might not have if64500:50:36.719 --> 00:50:39.119we were living on her own.So there's that. And then it's like64600:50:39.719 --> 00:50:44.239by living here and she gets togo to a really good school which,64700:50:44.360 --> 00:50:46.480if I lived on my own,probably wouldn't be as good of a school64800:50:46.599 --> 00:50:52.880just because of the price of thehouses are in a different area. And64900:50:52.920 --> 00:50:57.599then, Um, and then finally, like they loved taking care of her,65000:50:57.639 --> 00:51:00.760they love doing stuff with her,and you know, so, I65100:51:00.800 --> 00:51:04.800think. I mean, I lovethe situation I'm in now. I just65200:51:04.840 --> 00:51:10.079got it positives here. Ye See, like it took probably two years to65300:51:10.119 --> 00:51:13.719get out of the fact that I'mlike, okay, I have nothing.65400:51:14.360 --> 00:51:16.159I'm like I'm the worst I have. The one thing I have is that65500:51:16.239 --> 00:51:22.239I'm gonna I'm a good what youwere doing was resetting. Yeah, white65600:51:22.239 --> 00:51:25.920many sleep clean. You don't havewriting there anymore, but that writing was65700:51:25.960 --> 00:51:30.800shitty anyway. So you're gonna writea good story this time. Exactly.65800:51:31.000 --> 00:51:35.960That's why my book is going tobe about. Gonna be about this guy65900:51:36.039 --> 00:51:39.960that you used to know like backin the day, and uh, his66000:51:40.079 --> 00:51:47.000name is wilber. He was askateboarder and stuff like that, and uh,66100:51:47.400 --> 00:51:51.639you love Wilbur. What was alittle rough of a name. We66200:51:51.719 --> 00:51:59.119might have just change his name orsomething, but the name every okay,66300:52:00.079 --> 00:52:04.480Um, yeah, okay, okay, yeah, so, okay. So66400:52:04.599 --> 00:52:07.719tell me about that about you.What do you think about you right now?66500:52:07.440 --> 00:52:12.800Well, what was the question?What is your definite how has your66600:52:12.840 --> 00:52:21.599definition of success evolved from when weall left college? What did you want66700:52:22.000 --> 00:52:24.840to have? Money. So,when you left college, the goal was66800:52:24.920 --> 00:52:32.679money, Girl and money. Idon't want to say that allowed grills.66900:52:34.440 --> 00:52:42.559Yeah, yeah, because we're talkingabout and reality. What was the question?67000:52:42.679 --> 00:52:45.519Success then, when I was younger, now that I have experience in67100:52:45.519 --> 00:52:49.639the world? Okay, so verysimply, success when I was younger was67200:52:50.480 --> 00:52:52.800H if I had a lot ofmoney, I would be successful, right,67300:52:53.079 --> 00:52:57.719which that's a version of success.But at this point in my life,67400:52:57.960 --> 00:53:02.320or knowing what I know, isif you're happy, you're successful because67500:53:02.519 --> 00:53:08.440ultimately you want money to buy shipthat makes you happy or that you think67600:53:08.480 --> 00:53:14.719will make you happy. Um,but all that's temporary and money, just67700:53:14.800 --> 00:53:19.400like money is and happiness isn't,if you have it as a mindset.67800:53:20.000 --> 00:53:23.800Yeah, so to see that thebeautiful life. So what would make me67900:53:23.840 --> 00:53:29.880happy now? To go into uh, to take that one step further.68000:53:30.440 --> 00:53:35.719I mean, I guess I don'tknow, because I've never like, Um,68100:53:35.880 --> 00:53:38.519well, I guess I've been trulyhappy. But, uh, I68200:53:38.559 --> 00:53:44.039don't know, because I've been soall over the place recently. But but68300:53:44.159 --> 00:53:47.559obviously having but by being happy withyourself, with what you do for a68400:53:47.639 --> 00:53:53.000living, finding purpose in that,as well as having a purpose getting up68500:53:53.039 --> 00:54:00.280every morning. So just taking careof yourself physically, mentally and also,68600:54:00.360 --> 00:54:06.360I think it's big for me.It's gonna be big too, because I68700:54:06.400 --> 00:54:12.719really don't think I care about myselfthat much, like meaning, trying not68800:54:12.760 --> 00:54:15.000to put it badly, meaning,like, okay, I do things that68900:54:15.039 --> 00:54:19.880are bad for my body, likeokay, I smoke and you know,69000:54:20.039 --> 00:54:23.800when we were in college we party, like things that weren't in the best69100:54:23.840 --> 00:54:30.679interest of my temple called the body. Right, so that that's like a69200:54:30.000 --> 00:54:35.559version of self hatred, so Ithink. And it's still do those things69300:54:35.679 --> 00:54:39.239right and still smoke, still don'treally wash my diet, you know,69400:54:39.320 --> 00:54:44.199and I exercise good but I don'thave the Diet or anything to else to69500:54:44.239 --> 00:54:46.679balance it out as well as Icould. So what is that? That69600:54:46.840 --> 00:54:50.400is me not caring. I don'tknow why I don't care. I don't69700:54:50.400 --> 00:54:52.800even want to go down that road. Doesn't really matter. But I think69800:54:52.840 --> 00:54:59.760I get the most happiness if andwhen I help other people and that to69900:54:59.840 --> 00:55:02.480be happy, you know what I'msaying, and that gives me more joy70000:55:02.519 --> 00:55:08.519than making myself happy. So,Um, whether it be Um, you70100:55:08.559 --> 00:55:13.559know, if I volunteered at adog shelter or an animal shelter, and70200:55:13.679 --> 00:55:19.800I like that because I love animals, or if I help somebody that was70300:55:19.880 --> 00:55:24.800struggling with something that I have experiencedin and it helps them, or just70400:55:24.840 --> 00:55:29.440have a conversation to get someone outof their head and they laugh at a70500:55:29.480 --> 00:55:35.880stupid joke I tell that makes meand measure will be more happy than making70600:55:35.920 --> 00:55:42.039my spying myself something. Now youknow, I don't know and you yeah,70700:55:42.079 --> 00:55:45.960so I don't know. I gottafigure out how to incorporate that in70800:55:45.079 --> 00:55:49.400my life because I know that's whatmakes me happy. But that was an70900:55:49.480 --> 00:55:52.800short answer. Is before I thoughtit was money and material and now I71000:55:52.840 --> 00:55:59.280know it's people and connections. Butyeah, I mean, and that's I71100:55:59.280 --> 00:56:01.159feel like a lot of people,I don't see. That's the other thing.71200:56:01.199 --> 00:56:06.559I don't know if people have thatfor real or do they think they71300:56:06.599 --> 00:56:15.280have that or overcompensating or lying topeople or themselves? Because maybe it's me,71400:56:15.360 --> 00:56:21.239but I find it really hard tothink that people really do have every71500:56:21.239 --> 00:56:25.880everything with no flaws, like theirmental health is and everybody's got their flaws,71600:56:27.000 --> 00:56:30.559right, I mean, and that'sthe other thing that makes it hard,71700:56:30.639 --> 00:56:37.119because social media everybody's good things andfake good life. Yeah, the71800:56:37.239 --> 00:56:38.719bad things too, if you do, if they mess up once, like71900:56:38.760 --> 00:56:44.519a celebrity, they they're caught,whereas before they weren't. So it's hard72000:56:44.559 --> 00:56:47.119to go out to the radar.Now you're more vulnerable your private life as72100:56:47.119 --> 00:56:51.119a celebrity, and that's why wesee all these scandals. Now it's not72200:56:51.199 --> 00:56:55.679like, Oh, now they're corrupt, they've always been corrupt. Yeah,72300:56:55.880 --> 00:57:00.760I don't know, but the goodcomes bad with every thing. You're balanced72400:57:00.760 --> 00:57:07.360with everything. You know. Yeah, it's it's the world's very tempting,72500:57:07.559 --> 00:57:13.199tempting place with with with the temptationsof evil, you know, things that72600:57:13.280 --> 00:57:16.039make you weak. So scact,we can take your soul for that second72700:57:16.440 --> 00:57:22.679whatever. I don't know, butI haven't read the Scriptures, but I72800:57:22.679 --> 00:57:27.880can tell you that, uh,nothing out there is really good for you.72900:57:27.960 --> 00:57:31.079That makes you happy, is reallygood for you, exercise, and73000:57:31.239 --> 00:57:37.320even then you're gonna make sure youhave a good diet of gramatic genetically modified73100:57:37.360 --> 00:57:43.920food and ship and sugar to sustainthat. You know, how can you73200:57:43.960 --> 00:57:46.440win in this ship life unless you'rein like the one percent of the one73300:57:46.480 --> 00:57:51.840percent. You're you're and they're Indesome evil ships. So right here,73400:57:52.559 --> 00:57:55.559who knows? I just focus onme. I don't care. I don't73500:57:55.559 --> 00:57:59.559care about the news, I don'tcare about nothing. Yeah, that's my73600:57:59.679 --> 00:58:01.840problem, the news. Yeah,why do you care about things? Because73700:58:01.880 --> 00:58:07.599it's like, because, dude,they're fucking facts. Tunes every four seconds.73800:58:07.239 --> 00:58:12.800Here's one that really and I'm aboutto write, I'm about to unleash,73900:58:12.880 --> 00:58:15.159and that's where I give up.I don't care. I don't know74000:58:15.159 --> 00:58:19.679anybody. Yeah, I don't evenlike anybody in America. Okay, I74100:58:19.719 --> 00:58:22.599mean, it's going to really takea lot for me to go overseas with74200:58:22.639 --> 00:58:30.079my likeness. You know. Youknow what we legit need to be worrying74300:58:30.119 --> 00:58:36.719about, and I'm not joking aboutthis, is whatever the hell is happening74400:58:37.000 --> 00:58:43.079with Um not ufos, whatever thewhatever they're called. Now there's things in74500:58:43.119 --> 00:58:52.719the air and there's like government,confirmed government, maybe whatever that there's ship74600:58:52.800 --> 00:58:59.400in the in the United States that'skind of related to ufos that are mean74700:58:59.719 --> 00:59:04.119send messages. It's so real.Yeah, they said that, but they're74800:59:04.159 --> 00:59:07.519just sweeping it under the road.But I'm not surprised. Listen, I74900:59:07.880 --> 00:59:10.519had an alien experience one time.What was that thing you posted? What75000:59:10.559 --> 00:59:19.960was that? That was actually UmI learned later that was umsel posted.75100:59:20.119 --> 00:59:27.320So it was space aft rocket.I don't know, but there's so many75200:59:27.480 --> 00:59:30.840and like and makes sense. Thetrail. Yeah, they're breaking the trail,75300:59:31.119 --> 00:59:37.480I think. I think Elon MustI think he he obviously knows and75400:59:37.519 --> 00:59:42.159I got him in the act.Yeah, I mean emprised that that foot75500:59:42.239 --> 00:59:45.400is just wiped from my phone,though. I should check on that.75600:59:45.960 --> 00:59:51.440Mr Musk must be. Yeah,no, it's definitely Alice. I when75700:59:51.440 --> 00:59:53.079I was little, I had Isaw aliens at my house. It was75800:59:53.119 --> 00:59:57.000the craziest thing in my life,literally, like when I woke up.75900:59:57.320 --> 00:59:59.440Well, I'M NOT gonna type Afull story. We'll save it for a76000:59:59.440 --> 01:00:04.320different one, but alien should bea whole. Yeah, happened a couple76101:00:04.320 --> 01:00:07.639of times because where I come fromis crazy. But Um, all right,76201:00:07.679 --> 01:00:10.800look up one time and we wereon bed bunks right our house in76301:00:10.840 --> 01:00:15.920New Hampshire, my sister, andthen if we had any friends up,76401:00:15.960 --> 01:00:19.480we'd all put a bunch of mattressesdown in there. And so the floor76501:00:19.519 --> 01:00:22.199of we all mattresses and then abunk bed Nicole's. Yeah, it's the76601:00:22.199 --> 01:00:25.320best. And then so I'm andI was young and I get out.76701:00:27.039 --> 01:00:30.559I was on the top Bunk andI had to pee and I jumped down76801:00:30.639 --> 01:00:34.519and and and there's all mattresses onthe ground and you can't step anywhere.76901:00:34.800 --> 01:00:38.880And I look down once I jumpeddown and I looked trying to find the77001:00:38.920 --> 01:00:44.960door and all of a sudden there'sabout seven, six or seven short,77101:00:45.199 --> 01:00:50.400chubby looked like Buddha, looking likeblue men. Right, no, not77201:00:50.599 --> 01:00:53.960threatening whatsoever. And I'm staying andlike they're all over that. There's not77301:00:54.079 --> 01:00:57.679space for them, right. So, but I'm so I just shake it77401:00:57.719 --> 01:01:00.400off and I look again. Ithought of my eye and they're still there77501:01:00.719 --> 01:01:06.079and they're talking amongst each other andlike and like, I went to touch77601:01:06.199 --> 01:01:12.320one and right when I touched himhe did not move. So I didn't77701:01:12.360 --> 01:01:15.199touch him. So I just Isaid, I went to the bathroom yeah,77801:01:15.280 --> 01:01:22.039yeah, still there. WHOA thing? I went up my ladder.77901:01:22.440 --> 01:01:27.239Yeah, and then woke up.They weren't there. But how that was78001:01:27.280 --> 01:01:30.000weird. So I've known. I'veknown about those aliens. Well, you78101:01:30.000 --> 01:01:37.000could have just asked me. Iwas a denyer until I forget. I78201:01:37.039 --> 01:01:40.880forget what happened, but I startedwatching the when that that one dude.78301:01:42.119 --> 01:01:45.639Well, first of all I lovedlink one a D two. So when78401:01:45.679 --> 01:01:50.119Tom Delong started going nuts, Ihad to like, I don't even know,78501:01:50.199 --> 01:01:55.840but yeah, but yeah, back, Yo, Yo, Yo.78601:01:58.679 --> 01:02:02.880My parents, that our town parentsare out of town. Yeah, they78701:02:02.880 --> 01:02:09.199have a ring camera that they justput in kids. I know. Well,78801:02:09.239 --> 01:02:14.039I feel so bad because my dad, all the kids, my dad78901:02:14.079 --> 01:02:17.840has this house right. There's twomaster bedrooms, there's four bedrooms, there's79001:02:17.920 --> 01:02:24.960like where I live outside the everything, any bedrooms. And you're like where's79101:02:25.000 --> 01:02:31.480why I live? Dog coups outside. No, it's a guest sweet thing,79201:02:31.960 --> 01:02:36.559because I don't. It's so Idon't have to interact with them and79301:02:36.559 --> 01:02:39.960and I appreciate that. Um,but so underneath, so they built me79401:02:40.000 --> 01:02:44.400a balcony, they built me,Um, like a fire pit area,79501:02:44.559 --> 01:02:49.199and then around the side they havelike the pool area. So there's a79601:02:49.239 --> 01:02:52.920lot to do. But with thatsaid, it's also scary because they only79701:02:52.960 --> 01:03:00.920have one ring camera in the front, so I'm in the back with a79801:03:00.960 --> 01:03:07.000lot of woods. No, it'slike a super it's like a I don't79901:03:07.000 --> 01:03:09.079want to say it's a rich neighborhood, but it's a pretty high priced neighborhood80001:03:09.119 --> 01:03:13.719and we're in the back of aneighborhood. So it would be worthless.80101:03:14.360 --> 01:03:21.960There's no woods. No, what'sbehind us is like uh, but like80201:03:22.000 --> 01:03:27.119a half a mile behind us there'sa starbucks and lily school, my daughter80301:03:27.199 --> 01:03:34.280school. Yeah, so I figuredif anyone's going to try to steal anything,80401:03:34.360 --> 01:03:38.920first of all, everybody here hasa camera. UH, so they'd80501:03:38.920 --> 01:03:43.599be screwed. First of all,just everyone has a gun. I have80601:03:43.679 --> 01:03:46.000a gun. Trying to tell him, just tell him you have aids and80701:03:46.079 --> 01:03:52.360just bite his arm. That's whatI keep saying. That was my I80801:03:52.400 --> 01:03:57.440thought of that the worst weapon everand I thought it was during not the80901:03:57.480 --> 01:04:01.480best of my days. But areyou around a syringe full of your blood81001:04:01.760 --> 01:04:04.920and just and if somebody ever triesto rob you, just say I'll stick81101:04:05.000 --> 01:04:09.960you, I got AIDS. motherfucker. You know, nobody wouldn't even take81201:04:10.000 --> 01:04:13.800that chance, you know what I'msaying. I was thinking that and I81301:04:13.840 --> 01:04:17.480was thinking that if somebody, Um, damn it, Moss, come on,81401:04:17.599 --> 01:04:24.360let's pile under, if somebody wasgiving me shit about wearing a mask81501:04:24.559 --> 01:04:30.119or whatever, I'd be like,I have a and I see to prove81601:04:30.159 --> 01:04:34.760a point where you can't get aidsfrom coughing on somebody. But if they81701:04:34.800 --> 01:04:39.280all of a sudden leave me alone, then it's like, do you even81801:04:39.280 --> 01:04:43.079know what you're talking about? Likeyou can't, you can't get aids from81901:04:43.440 --> 01:04:46.440so leaving me alone, telling menot to wear a mask, me telling82001:04:46.519 --> 01:04:53.280you it's because I have aged justdoesn't make any sense, but that you're82101:04:53.280 --> 01:04:58.719an idiot. So I don't know. I've had a couple of dreams,82201:04:58.880 --> 01:05:01.719not daydreams, but like scenarios.I like, what would I do?82301:05:02.719 --> 01:05:05.440That's a good one. Off Theanti. I mean, wait till you82401:05:05.480 --> 01:05:09.639get robbed and go for this bloodysyringe. All right, don't worry about82501:05:09.639 --> 01:05:13.280little. I have my gun,I have my pistol that I take with82601:05:13.320 --> 01:05:16.039me when I go in and people, people, people survive shot, getting82701:05:16.039 --> 01:05:19.000shot. All right, people arenot not afraid to get shot. The82801:05:19.079 --> 01:05:20.800AIDS, though. Let me tellyou, they don't love with that.82901:05:23.800 --> 01:05:27.280I mean I would. Somebody hada Rehab said that and I'm like,83001:05:27.320 --> 01:05:30.320you are a genius, bro that'sgenius. He's like, yeah, I83101:05:30.400 --> 01:05:36.119robbed people with bloody syringes. Igo, are you serious? That's why83201:05:36.159 --> 01:05:40.920nothing pases me. All right,so you know, I've seen the good83301:05:40.920 --> 01:05:46.039and not seen the bad. Ichoose the good. No, bloody,83401:05:47.760 --> 01:05:50.480that's a good one, I think. The other good one, Um,83501:05:53.199 --> 01:05:58.440what was another good one? Theone I think about is like kind of,83601:05:58.719 --> 01:06:03.440kind of the same, like whenyou're trying to negotiate with a Um,83701:06:03.719 --> 01:06:11.559uh, like a hijacker, kindergartener. Kindergarner, a hijacker or hostage83801:06:11.880 --> 01:06:15.400situation or no, car jacker.I was like, okay, you can83901:06:15.480 --> 01:06:17.840take my car. If you decideto take my child, you're gonna actually84001:06:17.840 --> 01:06:24.280be into very serious. So justgive me my kid out, but take84101:06:24.320 --> 01:06:28.079the car, take the phone,whatever. Just give me that kid and84201:06:28.280 --> 01:06:31.199I'll give you a ten minute headstart, like whatever you want, I84301:06:31.239 --> 01:06:38.880will call tomorrow. Um, youknow, that's my worst fear. So84401:06:40.639 --> 01:06:45.679this one might be actually a goodepisode to put on video, because they84501:06:45.760 --> 01:06:51.599got a fear factor because I likeplaying people's fears. Let's have a positivity.84601:06:53.840 --> 01:06:56.760Yeah, wait, yeah, thatneeds to be a thing these days.84701:06:58.079 --> 01:07:03.960I want to see a video phonegetting the hatches on the Internet are84801:07:04.039 --> 01:07:09.159like, yeah, if I couldset up the Internet, that would be84901:07:09.239 --> 01:07:14.800it. Oh my God, there'sso many. Oh, I remember one85001:07:14.840 --> 01:07:18.920of these photo shoots. I wentto the very first one, photo slash85101:07:19.000 --> 01:07:23.480video. Um, I walk in, I had no idea what I was85201:07:23.519 --> 01:07:29.199doing, where I was, andthe Group of people sitting in the couch,85301:07:29.519 --> 01:07:34.360we're watching decapitation videos, and Ithought I was going to die.85401:07:35.280 --> 01:07:41.079I really thought that was this ismy death. Um, where do you85501:07:41.119 --> 01:07:45.880get? Where to get someone inthe mood? It was so grow text85601:07:45.960 --> 01:07:51.880like, who could even stomach thatkind of story? It's really I mean,85701:07:53.119 --> 01:07:56.679I still, you know, obviouslyI still think about it, but85801:07:58.760 --> 01:08:04.760what a what a warning, redflag? Yeah, well, you'll have85901:08:04.800 --> 01:08:08.840any alert. I am it iswhat it is. I'm out of my86001:08:09.360 --> 01:08:13.639nothing can happen to me at thispoint. Knock on wood. Uh,86101:08:13.719 --> 01:08:17.600I've lost my job. I couldn'twalk for Aier. Um, I almost86201:08:17.640 --> 01:08:21.600lost my car, like, bringit on, there's nothing I can lose86301:08:21.600 --> 01:08:25.239at this point. But I dofeel like harm has been paying me back86401:08:25.920 --> 01:08:30.199with like things like the blogs goingwell. I have a lot of friends86501:08:30.239 --> 01:08:34.079that have those that are verified,so they're gonna help me a lot with86601:08:34.920 --> 01:08:42.640Um. I'm cashing in all myum favorite that they owe me for writing86701:08:42.720 --> 01:08:47.000articles, so to get some more, you know, followers. But before86801:08:47.079 --> 01:08:50.720that we need to get used todoing this and we need to get used86901:08:50.720 --> 01:08:57.560to doing live, uh, instagram. We need to do live. Thanks,87001:08:59.119 --> 01:09:01.680and then I'll bring and my momknows a bunch of people. She87101:09:01.760 --> 01:09:12.479knows a former she played in aband with Tim McGraw's Bass Player, and87201:09:12.600 --> 01:09:16.920she knows a songwriter who wrote forlike a bunch of artists in the seventies.87301:09:17.640 --> 01:09:24.560My my dad's best friend, whichis like my uncle. She's a87401:09:24.560 --> 01:09:29.439tour manager for a C D Cand kiss. So like there's a lot87501:09:29.520 --> 01:09:38.239of these cool little random connections thatI have that I am not prepared to87601:09:38.279 --> 01:09:41.880put my best foot. Yeah,of course, once you get the steam87701:09:41.960 --> 01:09:45.279roller going, then those, Ithink those will all kind of a lot87801:09:45.319 --> 01:09:48.680of them will naturally take shape,and then the other ones that you see,87901:09:48.880 --> 01:09:54.720they'll be glad to help you,you know. Yeah, we'll get88001:09:54.760 --> 01:10:00.279the momentum up before ever again.We can make this they situation, the88101:10:00.439 --> 01:10:04.880bell and Ricky show, a longtime. I'm ready to go. I'm88201:10:05.000 --> 01:10:12.800ex Austin. You're tired. Iwas. Honestly, I was super tired88301:10:12.840 --> 01:10:16.159when we started and then I'm likenow we're gonna do this, this power88401:10:16.239 --> 01:10:19.359through this. Plus, I waslike getting in my own head and I'm88501:10:19.359 --> 01:10:23.880like, it would be nice totalk to yourself. Yeah, thank you.88601:10:24.279 --> 01:10:30.720You're welcome. Are you around tomorrow? Yes, tomorrow, Sunday,88701:10:30.840 --> 01:10:33.399yeah, rather than me going tochurch, you know, six or seven88801:10:33.439 --> 01:10:39.840times in the morning, please.So, yeah, I'm sleeping in and88901:10:39.880 --> 01:10:43.560doing not ship. So yeah,all right, let's get a couple in89001:10:43.600 --> 01:10:47.800the archive and let's get it intomorrow. Rip It up to me.89101:10:48.479 --> 01:10:57.680All right, sir, thanks forthe conversation. Hey, yeah, you89201:10:58.720 --> 01:11:00.880can you say the one time?Cut Out. I said Hey, thank89301:11:01.359 --> 01:11:05.439you. Okay, and to thepeople at home, the folks at home,89401:11:05.520 --> 01:11:09.920thank you too. This is theBella and Ricky show coming at you89501:11:10.000 --> 01:11:13.840all. So you'll do this.So you'll do that. The exit.89601:11:15.960 --> 01:11:17.439The one more time. That wasa good one. Go ahead. I89701:11:17.439 --> 01:11:21.399don't know what I said. I'mhonestly, I'm brain. I gotta go89801:11:21.439 --> 01:11:27.000to the neurologists like bad things arehappening. All right, people, I89901:11:27.039 --> 01:11:31.760gotta go to the neurologious so signingoff. Thank you all. Just bad90001:11:31.760 --> 01:11:35.439ships happen and I hope to seeyou tomorrow. If I don't, give90101:11:35.439 --> 01:11:39.479me a hell of you. Ilove y'All. I love Y'all too.90201:11:40.439 --> 01:11:48.119Signing Solute please. Oh, okay, thanks for listening. If you like90301:11:48.199 --> 01:11:51.720what you heard, check out crossthe streams media dot com to hear more90401:11:51.760 --> 01:11:56.840episodes of this podcasts and the othershows on the cross the streams network.90501:11:57.199 --> 01:12:01.279Don't forget to subscribe, rate andreview on apple podcasts or wherever you download90601:12:01.319 --> 01:12:05.680your favorite shows. visit cross thestreams media dot com for more information.90701:12:06.199 --> 01:12:08.079See you next time.